Diva Mariah Carey knows what people are saying about her career and her public persona. "It's a dichotomy, I understand," the 37-year-old Grammy winner tells Allure magazine. "I understand that people think I am a ditzy moron."
"I've always had really low self-esteem, and I still do," she says, blaming her problems on a lack of confidence.
"What's weird about that is being on stage, and the love that you get, and the adoration that you feel from your real fans. It's hard for a partner to compete — just imagine," she said, hinting at the reason of her marriage breakup from Tommy Mottola.
She says she'd marry again — preferably, to someone who knows where she's coming from.
"That's a big deal for me: feeling like somebody else can't fully understand me because they're not in show business. It shouldn't matter, but it does, because the energy it takes to be 'on' is a lot," she says.
Carey's latest album, EMC2, arrives April 15. Her previous album, The Emancipation of Mimi, has sold 10 million copies.
The April issue of Allure hits newsstands nationwide on March 25.